you know what one of the worst feelings in the world is? losing a friend. and im not saying having them walk out on you, im saying losing a friend to death. be it murder, suicide, accident. yesterday my friend was reported dead. he had been hit by a truck in california and was put on life support. the system he was on at the hospital failed and he was pronounced dead. last year i lost a friend to suicide. he couldnt live with his parents, for they treated him very poorly, and one day he had enough and jumped out of a window. 6 months before that a friend of mine overdosed on heroine. he was taking to the hospital but it was too late. and a year before that i had a friend of mine was killed in colorado in a gang fight.

death is one of those unforgiving things. whether they left on good terms or bad terms, you never have a chance to speak to them again. every year you visit their graves and remember all the fun times you had together, or all the problems you could never quite solve. the feelings that come up are some of the worst feelings in the world, regret, sadness and hopelessness. but behind all those feelings is love, compassion and friendship. the feelings that may be masked in the moment, but reveal themselves later on in life.

Death, be it natural or not is part of any humans life. does it make it any easier knowing everyone will go through it? No. but what it does is lets us know we are not alone.

RIP to all people who have died, and RIP to my friends